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Healing Scab on a Child's KneeHow poor are they who have not patience! What wound did ever heal but by degrees. –William Shakespeare (1564 – 1616)

This past fall I was visiting some friends after a long summer apart. As I was crossing the parking lot, I was too impatient to walk and decided it better to run, in my pretty black high heels. Before I knew it, I was tumbling down, staring  at my pretty red scraped knee. 

Considering I had brought mostly skirts and dresses to wear in the California sun, I was disheartened by the hideous red scab that formed. Of course, band-aids were just as unappealing. No matter how much I willed it away, how much I wished it to heal, I looked down and there it was.  I was forced to bear the evidence of my fall.

Eventually, it faded away. I don’t know when or what day exactly, but somewhere in time it healed. Of course, I noticed it here and there, but one day I just looked down, and the scrape was gone. 

I try to remember that wounds take time to heal. No matter how much I will them to disappear or stop hurting, only time holds the true cure.  And no type of band-aid is a satisfying solution. But I do take solace in knowing that if I just grasp a little patience, one day I’ll look down and the scrape will be gone.

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Every beginning is a consequence – every beginning ends some thing. –Paul Valery

Most of the time, you’re so focused on new events that you don’t even notice what chapters in your life are ending. Inevitably it has to happen; that’s how we grow. But sometimes it’s hard to look back and realize the things we used to have and the things we had to give up. Did we fully appreciate the moments? And how sad that we rarely get a proper goodbye.

“When a person really desires something, all the universe conspires to help that person to realize his dream.” — Paulo Coelho

I give up.

I can’t tell you how many times I’ve said that. Or how many times I’ve felt that. Or how many times I’ve heard that from other people. It’s like sometimes, everything is stopping us…no matter what, we can’t win. That must be a sign…right? It’s just not meant to be. So we let it go.

That’s when I think we syphon out our real dreams.  Because obstacles are just there to test how bad we really want something. And it stops the people who don’t care enough. So when we keep standing up, and keep fighting and finally get there, we can appreciate it that much more. So rather than get upset and angry at all of these barriers and problems… perhaps we can look at them as tests to see what we really want out of life. What are we willing to go that extra mile for?

“Getting fired is nature’s way to telling you that you had the wrong job in the first place.”
Hal Lancaster, in The Wall Street Journal

OK, so I didn’t get fired. It was more like I quit with a lot of resentment and a small severance package. But somehow, it felt the same. I was waiting for a big promotion at a magazine editing job after my current position was moved to another state. When it came, it was saddled with an insulting salary that was already causing my credit card debt to max. No room for negotiation; they absolutely would not work with me.

At first, it was deflating. I could barely afford to live, and the stress was sickening. But there was something else that bothered me.  For some reason, I felt like it was more than the actual numbers. When a company offers you a salary, it’s almost a reflection of what you’re worth to them. And working with you on negotiation should show how much they value you.

I didn’t ask for much. It was actually less than the lay-off severance package they ended up giving me. All I needed was a little room for discussion. Any indication that they valued me and I would have tried to make it work.

But as Lancaster said, it was probably natures way of telling me I was in the wrong job. That next week I started working for a commodities broker. It may not have been the dream job I moved to California for, but environment plays a big factor in job satisfaction. And now I’m able to learn new skills and start challenging myself, which are more ways to find satisfaction. Best of all, I now work for a boss that believes in me as much as I believe in myself. I wouldn’t work for any less.

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